Well, it is now Tuesday. From what I understand, Jason is still on lock down. When will it end? I have no idea. I am despondent. And I'm worried about him...
Did I mention I don't have much support? Other than my friends, I don't get many pep talks or much support regarding my situation with Jason. I rarely hear from Jason's family and never from his friends. I don't have much family myself, but the family I do have either avoids the issue or flat out tells me I'm wrong. If I didn't have good friends who were always there for me, checking in on Jason's status and listening to me when I vent, I would probably go insane. My friends are the best!
There are people who actually make things worse. Right now I'm questioning whether it is me being oversensitive, or if there really are several people in our inner circle who enjoy talking down to me or who genuinely think I'm stupid. Of course these are typically people who aren't there for us, anyway, so I tell myself their opinions shouldn't count. I try not to dwell on negative and focus instead on positive. But they come around from time to time being judgmental or treating me like I'm an idiot. The adult in me says to just ignore them, but this is becoming a recurring source of irritation for me. And in my mind I'm also to the point of saying something to the effect of "If you're not here to help, leave me alone."
What do you think?
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